[	mood	|	loved	]
[	music	|	Ghost Man On Third Street	]

So things have been going pretty great lately...

Becky came over for the weekend, and we went shopping at Great Lakes. I got a ton of clothes... especially from 5-7-9.

I just got home from a lovely evening with Zachary..
                First we went to Oxbow and played on the playground! We had lotsa fun on the swings and in the kindergarten area, hehe.. man I love hanging out with him! There's nobody I would rather be with..
      Then my mom came out of nowhere with her pink blob and was like "the lights are coming on" and we were like um wtf.
                  Then we went to McDonalds and had some ice cream which got everywhere and we laughed. My chair......................
     We had lotsa fun in the car.. my mom was all, "WHATS WRONG?!" ahahahaha

MAN I LOVE THAT KID!

Congratulations to anyone who has ever felt as strongly about someone as I feel about Zack...
It's amazing, and I'm in love <3

[	mood	|	hot	]
[	music	|	Secrets Don't Make Friends -From First to Last	]

Went to the mall today with Zack, Chelsips Drea, Jordan, & Colin. It was very fun! Some highlights...
   - Wide stance
   - Drop it like it's hooot!
   - Bra kid
   - Singing "Goodnight Goodnight" in Pac Sun
   - Mutant screaming little girl
   - All 3 of us girls in the same dressing room
   - The song in Hot Topic .. SO SCARY!!!!! we ran out of there soo fast!!
   - Does yours taste different??? Can I lick yours?? Wanna lick mine???
   - ViBrAtiNg / massage chairs.. haha omgsh..
   - Getting cozy on a couch in the middle of the mall with Zack.. haha
   - Getting a gorgeous ring from Zack in Forever 21
   - Trying on formal dresses :) :)
   - Just being with *Zack*, especially because today is..
                                                      4 months <33

I love you so much. Thank you for the ring, it's beautiful and I love it. I'm going to wear it 24/7.. like even in the shower..lol
                4 of the best months of my life... and so many more to come <3

( If you love me... )

[	mood	|	cynical	]
[	music	|	Goodnight Goodnight - Hot Hot Heat	]

Tennis yesterday // made friends // was fun
Woke up late today // drew pictures // talked to zack // was also fun
Dad hates me // nothing new

( A city's regret for another life spent )

[	mood	|	relaxed	]
[	music	|	Concealer [Thursday]	]

Yeah, so I definitely had an eventful day...
I woke up shivering & shaking with a really bad stomach ache and stuff...I don't really know what was wrong with me but whatev. So anyways, I went to church- the normal Sunday stuff. Nothin' special, right? We came home and had our super-exciting Father's Day extravaganza: My mom forced me to go in the kitchen while my dad opened his *1* present and each of our cards. I didn't get him a funny card this year for the very first time because he hasn't been the greatest father to me lately. (I mean ignoring me for 3 weeks, what is this about?) So I just got him a 99 cent one, lol.
So after that exciting experience was over, my mom and I decided to go to Big Lots over in Union Lake. I drove and everything... but we didn't find anything cool in Big Lots (besides a $1 purple pillow.. score!) so we decided to go to K-Mart next door. I got some gray stretchpant kapris for tennis and just to chill around the house in, and my mom got some fancy car stuff. After that we went to the pizza store that's inside K-Mart where my mom got this weird cinnamin thing and I got *crazy bread* --> I seriously love that stuff so much. I managed to spill a large amount of pepsi on my white hoodie, which of course did not please me. That and the fact that the lady who gave us our food was obviously a lesbian. I didn't like it.
After K-Mart, we decided we were ready to go home since we spent all day yesterday in Toledo shopping and were kinda "shopped out". So we were heading home, driving through Union Lake- which, as we all know, has too much traffic for the way it is designed. Anyway, there was a red light so naturally I stopped and everything, but I guess the guy behind me didn't look up quick enough and he hit the back of our car. So we pulled into a little parking lot right next to us and called the po-po. The guy who hit us ate pizza in his pick-up while we waited. It took the po-po a really long time to get there, and when he finally did, he told us that the other guy was at fault and everything and said that my mom and he could settle it civilly instead of writing him a ticket so they exchanged information and everything. But now my mom thinks that he's gonna come to our house while we're sleeping and rape us all. She worries too much.
Yeah, so my mom made me drive home because apparently it's "important to get back on the horse" or whatever, I mean I really don't care... nobody got hurt or anything but it still kinda shook me up. I slept for like 6 hours when I got home. And my dad talked to me. Wow.

( A song I wrote )

So... Zack came over on Wednesday which was fun. I love the guy. Like seriously, all these stupid little things just make me realize how lucky I am. Like when we were laying around on the living room floor and he started hitting me with my giant blow-up crayon, and I looked at him, and he was smiling at me. I seriously just died right there. *sigh* but now he's on a church thing so I haven't been able to talk to him in like over a day...and tomorrow I'm going to Toledo for the day to hang out at Becky's apartment and do some vintage shopping....so I don't know, I really miss him.

I couldn't sleep at all last night for some reason. I ended up writing a poem about my dad which I will post at the end of my entry.

Then I had to wake up at very, very early to go to a therapist... which was really gay and unneccessary, but my mom freaks out over everything. So does my dad, which is probably the reason we haven't talked in like 2 weeks...

Yeah, so needless to say...things aren't so great right now. But tomorrow should be fun.

Anyway, make sure to check out my poem. It made my mom & sister cry.

( These wellings of remembrance )